It's my mood today.

Lastly, this week exams finished.
Cheer with that.
hohoho~
Sejarah was the last, actually scared with that.
><
Really.!

Craaaazy, almost. ^^

Quite excited after school.
Keep on laugh and smile when I'm facing my phone.
Many people said me crazy;
Really crazy. ==
Saw parkmin's phone.==
Haoming is back from Australia today.
Received some shocked sms. hohoho~
Finally.

My diDI is really quite 'g00d sale' ya.
Many girls surronding.
>Albert told me that, lolx..

I'm still wandering the uses of probability.
Really stunted with that, you can use it like that.
LOL.
Think too much.
But creative. XDDDDD

Stunted.

话说又回来。

今天的朝会服务，
对我来说：无言。

真的，无言。
酱简单的工作，都可以呆呆酱互望；
感觉上，还没睡醒。
还在冬眠状态，
看了都气！

为什么每次讲都是这样？
所以，我今天没出声。
只是思苓在讲。
我就装好人，看我可以忍几久，
毕竟好的角色比较容易在大发雷霆的时候，吓死人。
哈哈～
看得出思霓对队员也很无奈。＝＝

无言。

理事留下来。
彬欣蛮用心的。><
可是，他们又可以领悟了多少？
讲真的，我真的完全感觉不到有人在接收。
＝＝

我也不想多讲，
只会越讲越气。


你真的影响了我全部；
样样东西好像都离不开。
我不是开玩笑，
我开始很容易被动摇；
大家不行堕落下去～

起来！

清醒！

我的定点始终离不开。

始终都停留在那遥远而又邻近的距离；

捉不透。

摸不清。

过渡不理性；

更要清醒！

这不是幸福。

看到彩虹，
不代表你得到了幸福。

感受到了浓浓的直觉；
它告诉我，
不要再想太多了。
这…不可能。

不要怀疑，
不可能！
虽然它吸引你很久了。

清醒吧～！

窝在家。

一整天都在读书，
快要疯了。
><
狂读书。＝＝

纯粹很多考试。
好像会来不及。

还有东西做吗？
我一直在问自己。
很善忘啊～～～

I'm back.!

woke up very early today.
Take undang exam again.==
Yea.
Please don't suspect your eyes.
It's again.==
I failed last week.
Luckily and finally, I passed with 45/50 questions.

Cause..........,
I've found back my spirit to study and memorize.
Yeah~!
I'm back!
It's time for me to work hard again.
Study.Study.Study.!

Afternoon;
I'd do cleaning in home.
Buzy with stick dust.><
aha~
Al last, finished.
Tired.

I really admit I'm old now.
Physically and mentally.
LOL.
Same with sherlyn.
LOL. ==
Always forget what I'd just think.

Can anybody help me?
zzz.
Nope.
kakaz~

从来没想过真正的自己在想什么；
心不定。
很乱。

但，
我可以做些什么吗？

好像不能，
无能为力。

新春庙会。

今年的新春庙会，
可以不用服务了。
跑去逛；
可是真的闷。

讲真，我买了什么？
好像没有用到钱喔～
炳翰请我那本10块钱的固本。
哈哈…><

放学后，去KLCC。
看「大日子」；
支持本地制作。哈哈…
剧情还好啦， 只是对白真的很本土。
sibeh多惨杂的语言。＝＝
其中一幕，我还要掏纸巾。
很入戏下。><
第一次，酱多人一起出去，27人。傻的><

其中，搭LRT的时候，
就酱巧， 遇到albert还有他的“妹妹”喔～
wohoo!
捉到正。

Sakae sushi.
Sakai们的集聚地。
lolx...xD
38到死，最吵就是我们了吧。＝＝
吃到饱死了。
buffet~
我们那桌6人，应该有50碟吧～
第一次吃那么多。＝＝

付钱后，出去。
一个韩国人跟我们一起拍照。
很莫名其妙下；
最后还是疯狂握手。><
haha~

下次就请弟弟吃吧。
请了我酱多次，
有点不好意思。><
haha~

walao~快压死人的碟…xDD

Anything could be.

Variables changes from time to time.
I couldn't afford it;
Can't imagine what happened to me lately.

Sorry my dear fren,
Not in a good mood today.
Not giving you all my long face.
Just dunno how to release and voice it.
==
Sorry.

Everything is not in planning.
Changed.
I tried to rush for it.
Trying for my best now.

Surprised thrusday for them.
Well-prepared for your own good, kindly advise.
You'll regret if you're not following.

Nice wilayah AC photo in Facebook. :]
But the best photo is STANDING STILL.
LOL.
Is that proud of you all?!
No comment.
==

Recently, can't bear in mind to study well.
Keep study hard but forget at last.
Dunno when, I've this problem.==
Suffering.

我有太多太多的介意。

很傻；

拿自己的情绪在搏斗。

迎新会。

Today was a brand new day.
Greeting to all those new recruits ya.=)
Played with kinda crazy mood.
Cause this was my second time to participate this event.
Everytime I'd been committee.

Really tired today,
and was so delightful and surprise to see back all those lovely seniors.
Sorry for just calling some of them.
Too much, I can't afford.
LOL.
><

It's all good with them.^^

WELCOME 19 recruits in 2010.
Brand new total number and people.
I think all is form 1.><>

MC~><

One senior and many seniorssss...xD

Hapi birthday to binxin, hapi 17teen!

2010 birthday hat~kiss from parkmin, mengchun, siling, me and binxin...><

having fun with 捞生.^^

To the organising committee,

You all'd done a good job for all of us.

Really.
Please ignore those mistakes and fault.

You all'd been taking a time to prepare for us.

Please think like that.

Perhaps it's happy or sad so;

Anyway, nothing will be 100% best in what we're doing.

We have to learn something from those mistakes that have been done.
Grow up from that~!

Please don't stop to learn or thought yourself are the best.

Bermuhasabah. :]

Pity.==

Tired is surrounding with me,
I was like keep sleeping,
exhausted most energy.
But I felt that someone is taking part in my job.
That is mine!!
Can I have them myself?

Another me was,
Keep laughing in class.
Realise that...
Someone write a word wrongly for 17 years;
Someone pronounce a word wrongly for 17 years.
LOL.><

Yesterday was meaningful for wilayah team,
I think.
Get scold again.
We tried to get back the spirit of this team.
But I don't think so will success.
It may failed that I think someone doesn't listen to us.
Just like singing.
==
I don't hope that I was guessing the truth.

Target;Aimed.

Feeling kinda lousy life for my SPM year.
I've schooling for two weeks time.
But nothing gonna change for me.
Still like to sleep.
Felt sleepy most of the time:]
Having a shift sleeping with my dearest neighbour,
Mostly been security guard.
LOL.

Having fever and sorethroat recently.
And heavy flu. ==
So terrible with them.
Wish to tell everyone,
nothing happened to me, just sick. Please don't say me again. ==

Apparently thinking many targets in this year,
Maybe will be the last year in Chong Hwa.
For sure, I wanna working hard for SPM. ><
Take for ILS exam on 14 March.
Hope to be pass, as I'll do 5 chapters of revision per day, at least five days per week.
I gotta study 100 chapters for Grammar and Vocabulary.
Gosh~

Driving license.
Having undang exam this very weekend.
Nice ya?
It will be soon for me to have L lisence if I passed everything.^^
And will be soon to have P license as I planned to.

In SJ, I want to achieve my target as well.
Be the holder of 1000 Gold Service Shield.
Be the holder of Grand Prior.
Be One of those extinct holders in Malaysia.
I want to achieve these in this year.
Can I make it?
Dunno.==
Although it's just a certificate,
I think I wanna get it.
At least they are the papers which cetified me in SJ.

Mum talk to me today.
If I follow her way to study,
I wont study UEC.
So confused.!
Argh~!

I have to CONTROL myself.
Try to keep away from anything that effect me in achieving all those.
I'll my best, try not to disappointed myself.><

Don't let me think of all that.
I can't concentrate even 1 second.
Thinking too much.==
Hoping for anything, but nothing gain and feedback.
Everytime i think, everytime will sad so.
Everytime i saw, everytime will sad so.
Everytime i gained little, everytime will lost so.
Gosh~
Damn disappointing.

Hope everything gonna be all fine in my SPM life.
=)

My first lesson:]

刚刚上完undang kursus…
下个星期应该就会去考了吧。
有很久下。
1030－1600；
0900就去了，排队弄等等等等的手续，
就差不多时间了。
＝＝
久到～

上课的时候，
我就快要睡着了。
还好有sms震一震我。
哈哈…
sulim sms me, but so shocked with her first sentence..><
so 8 arh her~
kakaz..

一整天都在伤风；
很不舒服。
啊～～～～～～～～

刚看了学会部分朋友的部落格。
都在讲学会。
被影响了吗？
还是，在延续心情而已？
哈哈…

还有，我的脚，很酸痛。
死咯，酱快就觉得老了。><

『一波未停，一波又起』
烦啊～
本来不想理料的，
但，还是找上门。
我要专注！

还有，不要有事没事，就提那只初一的。
我会对人很反感的！
毕竟，我没有喜欢她！！！

我的部落格破10000次浏览咯。
yeah~!

学会开始咯.

整个星期都在忙着。

上课…不懂做么一直觉得上课的头脑全是空白，一直听不到东西。
学会…什么东西都赶着计划，很多都要叫给联课申请了。
聆听…聆听一堆人跟我讲的东西，上课上不到。＝＝
生日…再一次，谢谢大家。还有，钰凌，生日快乐！
考车…明天我就要去上undang咯。^^

开学礼。
第一次在2010年用副主席的名义服务。
纯粹巡逻；
哈哈…
不过，还蛮忙的～
很多晕倒、生病酱；
base都差不多满了。
文豪胃痛，还要我给他倒水，服务太周到了。＝＝
哈哈…
这次的排位，真的不像样。
我都不懂要从哪里过。＝＝

挥春。
乱来。
很快做完；
还带大楷去做tim…
顺便。哈哈…
聪明叻？kakaz...

第一次学会，
终于开始了。
很对不起美倩，我没去救伤室服务。
sorry...!
本来有很多东西要讲，但还是算了。
毕竟还是第一次。
他们不应该酱快就有失落感；
我也一样，不管任何时候、任何场合。
今天的团康，谢谢颖杰安排。
很好！
我没想到第一次学会就要讲酱感性的话。
学会，2010加油！
思苓啊～你讲了你看了某个人blog后，全学会都好像懂是我咯。
哈哈…没关系啦。
增加下浏览人数。^^
还有，不要怀疑自己的决定叻；
你是对的！

突然间觉得自己老了很多；
被罚了后，很累。
团康后，也觉得累。

忆。

做完了add maths，
没事做了。

整理去年在学会的一点一滴；
小册子。
快乐小信箱收到的信。
senior给我的感言。
勉励信。

我真的好怀念过去的自己；
跟现在完全不一样的自己。
在学会的日子多么单纯。
怀念去年的理事团，
怀念不存在2009年的任何一样人、事、物。

真的觉得不好意思。
快乐小信箱，我没什么支持到。
也好像没有什么回信的记忆；
真的…不好意思。
…耀宗不管在什么紧要关头，都会写信给我，叫我加油。
…慧卿常写废废的信给我。
…婉怡的信。＝＝
…彬欣第一次写信给我。
…思苓的信，让我知道「一家人」。
…诗妍为我们带学会打气。善良与严肃并存，真的不简单。＝＝
…淑琳的信，顺便写的喔～就是看了这封过后，开始哭到我要死＝＝
…佳芸的信，我真的忘了回复。只想澄清，我们真的有少少误会吧，我根本就没有不要理你啊～
…允栋以前写给我的感言。

我哭了。
重新感受那时候的感受；
感觉上幕幕再现。
那感觉没变，
只是很想念、很怀念。
不可能回到过去了吧。
突然蛮想念淑琳，她那38样。><

那些声音全都不在了，

很伤感。

我需要安慰吧，

但更需要关心。

发自内心的关心。

自从坐上副主席，
我离大家的话题好远了。
似乎学会的人都不会跟我一起聊天。
乱虾哈～
没有了。
剩下的，只有吩咐做东西。
教他们怎样做东西；
大脑也只留着想还有什么东西要理事做的。
我不想要这些…
大家有什么事，就当我是以前的我，不是副主席的我，好不好？
我不要在圈圈外面。＝＝

最近大家都开始忙了吧；
学会毕竟开始了。
我想很多，
觉得自己变了。
真的…
强烈地感觉到；
变得我自己都觉得讨厌自己。
自私的想法。
顾虑非常多。
偷懒很多。
握权太多。

Wilayah的话，我不想催了。
要不要训练，你们自己决定吧。
反正去比赛的不是我。
我静静等你们反应就好了。
不过，我想说声，对不起。
之前放假没好好给你们训练；
好像很颓废、很浪费了你们的时间。
现在我会好好地准备的。><

今天在学校，笑很多。
突然有想开了的感觉。
他们想拿去经营，就去吧。
我不想不爽下去。
很痛苦下的；
有时候像文康讲的酱，几好～

突然觉得跟人相处真的很难，
可能我要求太高了吧。
但我还是尝试压抑着，
我不想重犯，
不想后悔。

我想专注。

现在除了学会，学业；

其他都不想去想了。

也许放下也是我的责任。
也许放下后，才能挑起心的担子。
感受新的一面。

也许我真的想太多。

请告诉我，你想太多了。

这样可能我会安心点。

Scary.

In fear today;
from time to time.
LOL
Scary people kept standing in front my class.
Finally, I'd to use the back door to escape from it.
once again, LOL.
-_-

I keep thinking those wasteful thingy.
Those effected my feeling today;
Argh~
I will try to be accustomed all the way.
Anyway, just try.
Perhaps it works.
But I don't think so.
Scary-minded to me.

I felt that myself is terrible enough;
Though it's my right to think of it.
But it hurts.
Unbelievable thingy.