A cheer up day

finally,
i can take the prinsip akaun subject in next year de SPM..
cz skul has juz approved me to take it..lol
some joyful nw~~

then hav oral test at the 5th period..
so poor for my presentation..==
and tat period i juz realize tat yew chung's english teacher same as mine..lol

and i reali reali worry abot pw..
she juz hav prob wif the muscle..
cramp cramp cramp~~
reali shocked and scared me..
i hav use my 3rd period and 8th period to treat her...
1st time to treat a casualty for 3 times..==

then we hav a meeting on 学艺展 after skul~~
sulim, tze sien, yong sheng, mei qian, and me went to uma for meeting...
lol
we hav lots of fun and joke on the way to uma..
it's a hot day and we're chilled by the uma's air-cond..^^
then we juz chat chat chat..
abot anything and everything~~lol
then we eat something in uma..
but the stomach still nt full~~xD
then we meeting for abot 1 hour..

and then we continue chat for abot 3 hours..lol
especially me, sulim and tze sien~~
3 of us are in a same channel..
but mei qian and yong sheng got lost~~lol
later they finally came back wif the correct antenna wif us..^^
so funny lor~~

although quite tired..
but after chat wif them~~
i'm nw feeling nt so stress..
next time i will find u two to continue de..lol

我受伤了。
被你利用，还得天天嬉皮笑脸对着你…
我真的快疯了～～

我不想理了…
我不想睬了…
只想，安静～～

就算你怎样说我，
我还是想说…
我没错。
而且，我也常常在让步啊…
不要再逼我了～～

我变被动了，不是吗？
因为，我不想再累了…
【主动的人，永远很累。】
所以，我想通了…
不再执著于〖如果的事〗…
现在要做的是…
脱离烦恼；
不想再挽回任何的东西。

除非…有人主动了。

替代品

「这个世界上没有什么东西是不能被替代的…」

我知道，
我被替代了…
彻底从你的心中淘汰了～～

我知道，
他绝对会是替代我的最佳人选…
所以，
这个世界上是没有什么东西不能被替代的。
包括我在你心目中的地位…

算了吧…
我不想再追求些什么～～
连替代的位置也不想讨回…
就让它去吧～～

因为，我真的累了。

funny maomao..==

today hav a panic but fun physic lesson..
maomao call ppl to answer his question~~
「wat is the angle between the pathway and horizon when an object moves in curlinear motion in the range(largest displacement)?」

walao~~
so hard to understand..
and so hard to answer too..

then, he call the ppl who has shortest hair to answer?!
so wai..
tat's me~~
aiyor..i reali dunno hw to do lar..
no idea..
then he ask me「为什么你酱想不开？」..
lol..
wat a funny question to me as many ppl hav ask me tis question..
and he oso say tat he dun dare to giv me treat if he is the casualty le..^^
cz i'm so 「想不开」...

but..i'm finally correct le..
the answer is 45 degree..
but he's so wai..
ask me to prove it..
ding~~
nw it's very very complicated le..
then he ask us to giv him answer when 2nd recess..
after class..i sms guo liang to ask him hw to prove..
but he din reply me~~
so sad..

then i din bother him..^^
hehe..

Suffer in tiring

so tired today..
juz sleep sleep sleep..
until teacher oso cant call me wake up~~lol
reali reali tired..

today, first training wif wilayah AC..
as i'm juz add in to be leader..
nt good in footdrill..
but better in case..especially short case~~
well done!!
surely, we nid more and more practise..
to gain most professional in the shortest time..
as we hav nt much time left..

nw busy to memorize oral..
tmr first period leh~~
so panic..
and next week..
i will full wif test, test and test..
ding!!
the schedule so tight..
sometimes i cant even spin my brain on time to suit the position~~

and nw doin the first aid syllabus..
i'm rushing in time to pass up tis stuff to fengz..
everynight i type them till midnight~~
so tired~~T.T

nw i noe tis level of tired tat jun seong suffering..
it's reali reali very very tired de lor..

sometimes, i nid a space to cry..
sometimes, i nid a packet of tissue..
sometimes, i nid a warm hug to fuel wif hope and energy for me to wont gave up ever..
sometimes, i nid ears to listen me..

Stuff

recently..
i'm so tired~~
and exhausted~~
always sleep in class..
especially on English lesson..
cz it's so boring~~lol

today juz hav a committee training~~
all so funny lor..laugh laugh laugh~~
nt so strict..lol..
having a joyful footdrill~~
having a fun case~~
everyone in a happy mood when training~~
like it very much^^

and..these few days..
has lots of stuff to ..
first aid syllabus~~
physics stuff~~
test~~
and nw..
mom scold me..
and warned me too~~
even call me to stay at skul hostel..
so nw having a "war" wif her~~
so hatred..
i hate this feeling to argue wif ppl..

i reali reali so tired wif these kinds of stuff~~
i reali reali wanna cry~~
T.T
i think i nid someone's ears to listen to me..
but i think i cant the ppl ady..
it's wont appear in my life le~~T.T

Final call

today wilayah AC and NC hav training at HQ wif gengta..

i feel sleepy cz yesterday duty till 1am..so i wake up so "early" and rush to HQ..
then, i watch them footdrill and case training lor..lol
so poor..
i reali dunno hw to say le..
very extreme disappointed~~T.T

then AC and NC hav a talk abot our prob..
expecially the leader~~
then we hav lunch at ..haha..xDD
delicious~~

nw i made a big and important decision~~
i hav change the number tat involve me in 2009 state comp.
leader-is me if no any big prob..
no 2-meng chun..
no 3-wai yew..
no 4-bing han..
no 5-fong bin..

so sry, ying de tat i hav to leave u out frm this team..
but cheer up and dun giv up..
and muz rmb to be one of the 2010 wilayah team members oo..
and i choose to announce here so tat i wont hurt u directly..
i reali scare i may hurt u lor..

lastly,
all wilayah AC and NC..
cheer up and add more oil lar..
as the competition is nearer and nearer..
GAMBATEH!!

they are footdrill-ing..
wow~~AC and NC are eating chicken rice..

dunno wat are sherlyn and jia yi doin?!

wat a delicious food leh~~

yesterday afternoon,
hav a nice duty till night..
with two SJI, Lio (the fish tail) and some mun chong girl..
reali enjoyed this duty..lol

the first time..i went for duty with laughter non-stop..
but fishy fishy fishy lor..
yesterday chat wif them many many things..
dunno hw to say..
juz happy wif tat duty..

our duty..
the programme so nice..and so shocked me..
when two girls dance in the air..
OMG..
the dance so graceful..
then..
the fireworks so nice too..^^
and we get a bag of gift lor..lol

dunno wat are they doin?!

one boy and one girl..xDD
wai yew laugh until like tat..
reali gt so funny mar?!

this is the fish tail tat i mentioned..

Lio's photo..

今天，又补课了～～
不过是生物…
所以，还好咯…
然后，我们就去IT room做物理的实验…
结果，
大家都没在做…
因为全部的人在IT room那边～～
online..blogging..friendster-ing..check mail..
哈哈…xD

在IT room1个小时，
我们才出来继续做实验…
哇塞！
一下子就做好了叻…
兴奋死人～～

以上图片都只是四分之三的完成品…

只欠粘土罢了…lol

而且，要强调～～我们没有骗人的喔！^^

三月份集训营

集训营叻…

集训前一天，
早上－毛毛补课…
下午，带wilayah team去HQ练步操…
有够力到…
给我一直骂一直骂…
晚上，大家住我家…
一起剪头发～～

第一天，早上，我们迟到了！
原本以为会被罚的…
结果，竟然没有叻！
哈哈
然后，慧慧老师给我玩几乎3个小时的团康…
是好玩啦…不过，有些玩太久了，显～～

下午，一直上课一直上课…
不过还好咯…
没什么闷～～

1am的火警演习，幸好我还没睡…
很快就去集合了…
然后，5am守夜～～
看到几个奇怪的新生做一些「奇怪」的动作…
无奈…
做么有觉不睡叻？＝＝

第二天，早上下雨…
不用晨跑，但『那只人』要我们做不懂mat屁伸展操…
难到……
以后可以给我们做一些人类做的早操吗？^^

下午，做case…
第一次command酱大型的case咯…
紧张～～
兴奋～～
总共有15个伤者…
我们组救了13个叻～～但“死”了1个组员叻～～
不错不错…
有待进步咯！
然后，就是「电影解说」…
因为有累…
因为有热…
所以对不起叻～～
一直打瞌睡咯…

晚上的睡衣party…
蛮有创意的…
蛮好玩的…
可是就不懂做么被人家duk出来和慧卿走猫步咯…＝＝
无言。
哈哈哈哈哈哈哈～

第三天的早上，
做早操…
晨跑4圈…
玩转站团康…
我们组蛮团结、蛮合作的…
好像成绩一直都在领先叻～～
因为我们【高级】嘛！
然后，就小组步操、大队步操咯…
柏铭去补课了…
所以，被迫一个人撑下去…蛮难的咯～～

下午，wilayah AC/NC步操、急救观摩…
步操，
我真的没话讲…
绝对失望＝绝望！
做case…
本来以为会好些的…
结果很想吐血咯！
烂到……
然后，我又开炮了～～
一直骂一直骂…
因为连最基本的东西也给我犯错！
连有些会员都听到了…
fishy fishy fishy
〖你们到底要不要出比赛的？〗
我好像一直都在问这个问题咯。

这次的集训营，
只觉得比往年幸福…
比往年轻松…
很少步操～～
很少体能～～
没有罚人～～
fuyoh!!

今天，
要特别去纪念「它」…
我的头发！
啊～～
botak了…
都是那个XX的提议…
我的头发没了…
Argh................

明天就要去集训营了…
不懂会是怎样的集训营…
哈哈。
希望是开心的；
希望是难忘的。

主动与被动

月色摇晃树影
穿梭在热带雨林
你离去的原因从来不说明
你的谎像陷阱
我最后才清醒
幸福只是水中的倒影

月色摇晃树影
穿梭在热带雨林
悲伤的雨不停
全身血淋淋
那深陷在沼泽
我不堪的爱情
是我无能为力的伤心

「被动比主动幸福、简单，不是吗？」

『主动比被动辛苦、复杂，不是吗？』

被动与主动的问题，我思考很久了。
要被动还是主动？
以前笨笨的我，
一直都是主动的…
现在，
我累了，
我怕了，
所以选择了<被动>。

爱情里的元素

爱里有迷失的我，和寻找的你…
爱里有惭愧的我，和原谅的你…
爱里有跌倒的我，和伸手的你…
爱里有伤心的我，和安慰的你…
爱里有虚弱的我，和坚强的你…
爱里有短暂的我，和永恒的你…
爱里有美好的回忆，回忆里，有我有你，却没有爱情…

爱＋爱＝非常爱
爱－爱＝从头爱
爱×爱＝无限爱
爱÷爱＝唯一爱

100％的爱情里，
它会拥有自己独特的一面，
它会拥有自己独特的公式，
10％的执着，10％的想念，
10％的吃醋，10％的疑心，
10％的甜蜜，10％的心疼，
10％的幸福，10％的妒嫉，
10％的脸红，10％的撒娇。

An embarrass day...

今天一大早起来，
就去服务。
sibeh早起来，也等了sibeh久…
那只R X G X 才起身，慢慢酱载我们去服务的地方～～

当然，
放了我们下车…
他就像以前酱，又在车上睡觉…
没办法…
我们只好自己「拾生」咯～～

不懂做么…
今天的我，很沉默、很静…
也不想讲话～～
也许，一切都还没回到从前…
也许，一切都还没回归原点…
也许，我不想再次打破什么…
也许，我不想再次失去什么…
所以，我才会酱静。
当然，我还在『尴尬』的状况下～～

服务完了，
赶回去补习…
没办法～～
人差就是酱的啦！
哈哈…
补完了，好累哦…
一上车就睡着了～～
哈哈哈

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i think tis few day properly abot capricorn 1..
i think and rethink..
reali wat am i wondering..
same as wat we always see at the supermarket..
!
as using in our relation..
!!!
i feel it..
i reali hav a ready since our relation hav problem..
i reali ready to face it..
no such of shy...
no such of embarrassed...

but..
recently when the relation seem like stick back..
reali juz seem like..nt reali stick back..
i feel the capricorn 1 is changing..
dunno hw to say..
but i reali feel it..capricorn 1 is changing his attitude wif his friends..
maybe tis is such a good thing..
maybe tis is such a bad thing..
maybe capricorn 1 changed becoz of me..
but..i still hav to say tis:

「不要为了别人而改变自己，这是不健康的、不好的、辛苦的；

要为了自己而改变自己，那才是真正的自己，快乐的、幸福的。」

dun so stupid to change urself becoz of others..
be urself back..
if u are so uncomfortable and unhappy..
but if u are happy and comfort at all..
congratulations to u..
u changed successfully..
changed into a person tat i love very much..

this is nt a lie!!! tis is capricorn 12's truth fact..
capricorn 12 love capricorn 1 very much..
i wanna them to be as good as passtime ago..

What a FUNNY day?!

今天的校庆，
从我出门到要去服务的时候，
都一直在下雨。
下个不停…

结果，取消了！
（不懂要开心还是伤心…lol）
回到班上，
就在那边一直讲一直讲…
讲不完。

9.45…放学咯！
就去换衣服…
虽然还是下着雨，
我，智培，钰凌，rayson还是排除万难，坚持下去…
3把雨伞4个人分…
走出去，搭的士去pavillion…lol

「redbox-plus」
我们的目的地…
顶！
那个狗眼看人低的烂人…
讲我们不能进去…
因为，我们穿白鞋白袜…＝＝
顶！顶！顶！

然后，等翠玲和她的姐姐来…
哇塞！
2个一样样的…
样子一样～
语气一样～
笑声一样～
好像什么鬼都一样酱…
连“都几funny一下的喔！”…都一样。
她们来了，
结果又去跟那只人对质过…
最后我们还是输了～～

大家跑了几条『街』
去到lowyat唱K…
不过，蛮便宜的～～
lol
翠玲和她姐姐唱歌…
噢～真的有够力好笑～～^0^
我们就一直笑一直笑…
（竟然…在这里看到芝萱！OH NO…）

下午4点多，
我们才回。（竟然在monorail遇到美倩…）
回之前，还去了times square一下下〖买礼物〗…
哈哈。
智培买starbucks喝完过后，又掉了钱包…
幸好，找得回。
我们一起坐巴士回的时候，他又把handphone case弄不见了…
haiz..
真【大头虾】！xD
哈哈哈哈哈哈哈～

wendy..we see a fastfood shop in times square named "Wendy's" oso..is tat ur shop?!..haha..xD