last exam before the mid-year

finally, today finish the exam before the mid-year..
of course the last exam is physics..lol

today, from morning to before test..
all the time..
discussing the concept with friends..
doin mechanics..
revising the maomao's note..

u noe..
maomao so wai..
our class will take the exam from 6th period to 2nd recess..
while 4s Xin will take the same exam from 2nd recess to 7th period..
but luckily 26 objective questions~~
haha..

so i'd a hope to pass le..
leave from the shadow of fail in previous physics test..
i'm reali reali happy lor..^^

「我知道」

发生好多事情…

今天，其实应该很忙的，
因为明天考物理…
可是却没心情做物理，所以也就没理它了～～

早上，淑怡、苑琳来找我…
给我队员资料表～～
然后就跟她们谈天。
然后，又陪淑怡找耀宗…
结果，整个早上就酱一直讲一直讲就用掉了…哈哈

然后上2节化学，「显」…
没听课…
就在那边想我的队庆要怎样咯～～哈哈
然后，婉雯又讲要去参加「民歌餐厅」…
所以大家又跟着一起讨论、一起颠～～哈哈
兴奋！

最好笑就是体育节～～
第一次晒晒酱考试…
听好来，考笔试哦…
是不是很好笑叻？
快点笑啦…哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈
结果，不懂做么的圈错一题答案，所以只错一题咯～～

第二次下课，本来只是跟耀宗吃的…
结果在食堂看到一大班酱…
苑琳、淑怡、思苓、彬欣、嘉仪、素美…………
然后，吃完了，
那班人就过来，
最wai就是那个嘉仪咯…
用一个碗掺掺掺买那些不懂什么「汁」
啊～～～～～～
很wai啊！

放学，硬笔书法比赛…
哇！
乱乱写的…
有够丑咯…哈哈
还有，耀宗就去簿记比赛…
真希望他可以赢…
酱子他拿到76,000的话，就有得～～～
哈哈哈哈..lol

然后，更显，还要去开wilayah检讨会议…
其实，我有很多很多要讲的…
但是都，不想讲了…
免得伤了气氛～～
所以，就憋住了…『忍』
开完会，就和淑琳讨论学艺展的步操…
有够complicated的…lol
然后6点才回家～～

还有，今天一直听到「我知道」…
也开始会唱了…
我觉得不只好听，歌词短短的，可是却表达了很多很多…
所以很喜欢…
听到很想哭，很替她可怜的一首歌。

『我知道』…BY2
从来没想过 不能再和你牵手
委屈时候 没有你 陪着我心痛
一切都是我 太过骄纵 以为你会懂
一直忘了说 我有多感动

我知道你还是爱着我
虽然 分开的理由 我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过
所以 即使到最后 还微笑着 要我加油

我知道你还放不下我
才会 在离开时 闭着眼没有回头
我们都知道彼此心中 其实 这份爱没停过

State Competition 25.26.

『At Chong Hwa Independent High School』

25 April 2009.

A nervous and busy day. Having state competition of footdrill and uniform checking section.Yesterday busy preparing first aid materials and uniform with Beng Han until 12.30 midnight.LOL so ma fan to iron the uniform and packed them. Quite a big construction.

First period, I received a msg from Beng Han that I forgot to bring all AC's cap and belt to school. SHIT! I'm in a quite nervous that time. Call my mum immediately for those things. Thanks Beng Han reminded me as I really forgot cause our hand full with full-u in the morning.^^

Have a lunch at canteen. Changed full-u. Ready to register. Our tag, ACM. Mr Wang in a hot-tempered that day. Scare. Then having a brief by Mr Michael and Gengta. Then have uniform checking by Gengta. Quite scare for my lapor. Then we wait at quarantine room to be called for footdrill. Our steward - Chong Shan. LOL

Footdrill. I have no comment. The sergeant so brilliant and smart. He firstly commented on our teamwork~he say poor, we didn't have any co-operation. So lucky to be realised by both of them. And also he say that my command must clearer and don't like “singing”. And we need more practised.^^ I think it's a good job as we practised so little for footdrill.

That night, all AC sleep at my house. Quite anger with. So indisiplin and irregular act in my room. And also just keep chating but not discussing case. I really think to and tend to say 「Can u all go back home for chating?」I'm quite unhappy and angry. So me and Beng Han watch TV downstairs.^^ That night, we slept about 12 in the midnight.

26 April 2009.

Today have a big event. Long case and Short case. Quite happy didn't see the people that I don't wish to meet. Preparation not enough for cases. Quite nervous.But luckily Su Lim be our steward today.^^ ACM, we the first group to exist short case. Quite lucky and happy, I think. So relax am I to handle the case as I haven't ready and start my hardisk. Quite lucky again that I still remember something and calm to do. But Gengta just beside us. I'm quite scare.LOL.

Finally, all is OK. Just need to remember log-roll method to check spine.T.T Then, we wait and wait and wait and wait and wait............. for long case. But a long time. We have done our business within gents and ate all the biscuits that we brought. LOL. Hungry too. Lastly, we're the last team to exist long case. Very poor result to me, I think. This year abit different, 4 casualties with 4 first aider. No any helper can involved included number 5. WOW! So difficult. And the important thing we need to learned from this case is - triage. haiz. I'd forgot cause of nervous spirit.

Haiz. This year earn participating certificate again.T.T

chao feng>>chi kang>>meng chun>>wai yew>>beng han>>feng bin

「persis kumpulan tandus berkumpulan; persis pasukan tandus berpasukan.」

This is the team comment..

tis is my tag..「ACM 1」..lol

Appreciate.

recently, i think abot who should i appreciate to..
as many ppl help me and care abot me recently..lol
and the physics test has been delayed..^^

first, muz thx yew chung..cz he always be patient to listen to me to talk, to complain and so on..
and oso always accompany me to hav lunch..^^
thx ya yew chung..
dun always tat prolonged-face..smile lar~~lolx

secondly..thx to benghan..
thx him very very much..
a good guy in wilayah~~
thx ya..^^

then hav to thx my frienz..
yi ting..woan wen..hui qing..pan loong..jia ching..yin teng..chee pui..rayson..xiang ning..loyce..
a gang of frienz tat worthy and merit to be..
always listen me to complain and murmur too..
and some of them remind me dun cry again and be tough and strong..
and made me feel relax and happy..
thx a lot~~

yuan lin..wan yee..sherlyn..bin xin..sue yee..sulim..tze sien..jia min..
thx all these ppl in SJ..
yuan lin~~be happy and hope u and XX will be good again..gambateh!!
wan yee~~dun tat face again lar..someone'll scare de..SMILE~~
sherlyn~~a ppl tat always straighten my mind..
sulim and tze sien~~always 88 de and listen to my voice..and straighten my mind too..
jia min~~a good frienz in society..i always hear her voice..be happy oo!!
they all're good freinz..
reali is true~~lol
always help me..always listen to me..always care for my condition recently..always give guidance on my mind..
thx ya^^

then hav to thx someone too..
vaL..rong feng..yong sheng..mei qian..yi zhong..guo liang..
they're good committee..
vaL~~wat a good MIC..nice ppl..
rong feng~~walao!! dunno hw to say this mankind..lolx
guo liang~~thx a lot ur help when capricorns get in trouble..been my postman..^^

anyway..thx all these ppl alot especially yew chung~~
tis idea came out suddenly from my mind to call me appreciate..
lolz

空。

当最需要别人帮忙的时候，
没人会伸出援手。
因为，这个社会有够现实～～

但至少，会帮你的，仅仅就只有一个…
那个人才是你值得守护的。
那才是你生命中最重要的人～～

而我，蛮幸运的…
应该算是找到了。
当然，那些平时对我怎样的，
请不要对号入座。

『不要等到别人对你微笑后才面露笑容』
『不要等到被爱已久了才懂得爱的存在』
『不要等到觉得寂寞才发现对方的重要』
『不要等到拥有太多才懂得分享两个字』
『不要等到失败了才回忆起别人的忠告』
『不要等到别人真的受伤了才请求原谅』
『不要等到一切结束才希望挽回和补救』
『不要等到没了、分开了才来后悔莫及』

『有些事情不能说得太明白，会造成代沟』
『有些事情不能说得不明白，会造成误会』
『有些人不需要很了解，才不会造成困扰』
『有些人需要非常了解，才不会造成牵挂』

我真的很讨厌他啊！
非常非常…
真的不想再施予面对。
使我生命中留下不完美的句点～～
我真的很讨厌他！！

「有你没有我～」

也许是最好的形容词…

today juz finished marking the quiz in my hand..
recruits and essential paper~~
others at park min there..waiting results~~
lol..
dunno wat to say abot their result..
so poor~~
dunno wanna happy or angry?!
as the highest mark juz in the range of 35 and the lowest is 8 marks..

i can't believe that a st john member can gain tis kind of result in quiz..
sure they cheat us last saturday when me and park min scold them..
sure they didnt read book or study first aid~~
or maybe they studied but cant absorbed..=.='''

A qualified first aider..
not easy to take about..
first hav to pass the recruit year and pass BFA/EFA..
quite difficult..
but why nw our members cant answer even :: What is FIRST AID??
WHY?? WHY?? WHY??

i quite confused about..
maybe the next step that i'll take is..
do more test or practical or others to improve our society..
sure another quiz half yearly..
but maybe additional footdrill test~~practical first aid~~oral first aid~~
WOW..many many more idea come out..
LOL

at that time,
i wanna our st john stand up back..
as tough..as firm..

「OUR ST JOHN::OUR HOME」

一切，我都知道。

想很多；做很多；讲很多；听很多；
所以，感触很多…

我真的很不明白时下的小辈到底在想些什么…
为什么他们可以这么忍心欺负长辈？！
为什么他们一直在跟过去比较？
然而，他们的组长还要花心思去开导、去关心、去把握他们？
难道这些都是天经地义的吗？
有时候，很想问这些人…
「你们到底是活在以前还是现在的？」

既然，大家都活在现在…
那就应该好好把握现在，努力造就未来～～

『好马不吃回头草』

难道这句话还讲得不明吗？
「过去」，
只是让你回忆的元素…
只是让你更勇于进步的目标…
而不是让你们比较现在的个体和从前另一个个体的好坏…
所以，请这些人的脑袋思想不要跨越应有的界限。
更要珍惜眼前的现在和一切一切美好的事物。

当然要补充一句，
「若要人不知，除非己莫为。」
一切的事情，我都知道…
不需隐瞒，我都知道…
所以，做好自己的本分；
一切就足够了。

还有，听到某人讲某人很假，
跟我们平时看到的某人其实是不一样的…
我真的有少少吓到～～
难道某人的假只是要博取我们的关心？
我不知道…

当然，还有很多很多我所知道的，但讲不完…
终究一句，
顺其自然吧！

juz back home from 1U..
a late shopping from 4pm to 8.30pm~~
tiring..but happy..
cz today eat alot..almost full~~LOL
firstly, buy a new camera..sony cybershot T-90..
wow!! so nice..
HAPPY!!

then, hav dinner at Italiannies..
full wif juz a big plate of pasta and a 8 pieces pizza..
and shared wif 4 ppl tim..
so full~~^^
but i did a wrong thing..
i ordered a cup of espresso costed 6.80~~
and the most surprise is the coffee is so small and tiny in cup as i can shallow it in once..
T.T
so expensive and waste money..

and today morning de duty..
wah~~so sienz..
juz a tadika sport day..
but we sure'd find something to joy ourself lar..
talk something tat really shocked and realized me..lol
but tis time de duty is short period, so cant talk too much~~
and tis time we din eat mcdonald ady..lol..xDD

the tiny espresso at Italiannies~~
my dinner wif pasta and pizza..^^

局外人

『了解一个人是很痛苦的』

这…我知道，也非常清楚。
做个「局外人」，也许是我现在需要的…
请不要逼我～～

我不想再重蹈覆辙了；
我不想再投以感情了；
我更不想了解一个不值得我去了解的人了。
所以…我才选择了放弃。
这也许是你们要的答案。

或许，你们都很在乎，
但我真的真的不需要…
我需要的，不是你们能给的。
请让我静一静，相信时间会冲淡一切。
届时，你我或许陌生了…
大家会好过一点。
不要再执著于我的答案了，我的答案并不重要。

既然仨人已经关系密切，那就不要被「局外人」所影响到吧。
做回自己，做回圈子中的自己，比较快乐。
「局外人」就随他吧；
不需要被他影响，更不需要理会他什么；
更不需要走进「局外人」的世界，尝试了解他。
就算没有了所有，但相信他还是会活得很好…
因为他已经习惯了失去、失去，又再失去的滋味。

他…真的习惯了。
他…真的麻木了。
请不要再担心什么了。

Bustle Day.

Today have a busy day. No time to read books as got much of things to do~~

Morning, have to duty at first aid room.
What a troublesome stuff to me as today have many test.
Then, go to sulim's class take documents.
Yeah! We hav get the CRAFT result. We passed~~

First recess, I don't have mood to read or study trigo as trigo test is goin at 4th period.
Go sulim's class to give back the document to her as signed by teacher.
I'm surprised afengzz is there.
Then, have a chat and discuss with both of them. Happy~~lols

then have trigo test..quite easy lor..but~~still can't get full marks..xDD
after 2nd recess, have to attend essay writing competition..
of course is bahasa Melayu de lar..
write till 3 pages lorr..^^

then have moral test at 10th period..lol
a funny test tat's a secret..

after school, have wilayah training again..
frustrated and hesitated~~
haiz..
I juz hope the state competition can over as fast as possible..
dun like recently scenario..
dun like to bother everything~~

superfluous-minded

A poor spirit and tiring minded day for me..

yesterday night, I'd accompany some friends chatting on MSN.
and of course, I keep on seeing ppl's blog, as it's my favour when i'm online.
I noe tat something happened recently. all ppl near to to me affected by me as they said so wif tears.

I'm so shocked.=)

I can't imagine some of them cry even drop a tiny drop of tear.
but they did~
I'm so hate myself. can't even giving a helping hand to them who're need helps.
can't even help my best friends in SJ. I think i'm useless, actually.
I noe, they had pay so much for SJ. I noe, they've pressure very much and no one understand them.
All these things, I noe.
but, why can we do?! as we're not the remote control.
we can't even control a small little thing.
so, let it be~

DON'T CRY, my friends..
tell me anything and everything if you need my help. I'm might not be a good helper but sure, I'll be the best listener and audience to you.
Promise, I may help anyone for anything tat can be made in my ability.
pls don't continue your world in the voyage of sadness, unless I'd accompany you.
Be happy!

Today have a relaxing study mood, I think.
But, it's a climax at the 1st period..
Lisan, my turns..
panic~nervous~heart gonna to drop out~
my script haven't been memorized well yet.
juz in a minute, all's finished~
It's done!! yippie^^
after tat, much better and relax in other period. including physics and biology.
juz feel tired and my ears goin to drop. haiz.

the most surprise is~~
my dearest teamate..beng han~~
he sms me at the 5th period..
say his hand dislocated. and I rushed to see what's goin on..
then I call him to check..
But the result shocked me, his hand fractured~
my first impressed like「huh? reali?」. but, I think he won't cheat me, actually. =.=
and second impressed is「how he's goin to have state competition as next weekend, it is!」
I'm very worried about him and competition.
I'm so annoyed with everything recently and now one more to fed up. But what can I do?!
Juz nothing.
Juz pretend to be happy to my life, add on such acting skills, to prevent everything happen again.

the 2nd recess. my name has been announced to go for meeting.
Becoz the deputy prime minister is goin to our school and we'll go for interflow with him.
So proud.=)
LOLs.
then we go there for headmaster's speech and somehow must-do and somehow don't-do.
what a complicated manner..xD

After school, have a tuition at villa angsana.
Goin to rain~but luckily it's rained after I reached villa.
Juz few ppl attend today's class. Raining is a big problem. Arghhhhhhh..........
although physically, I'm there.
But, I can't concentrate becoz I'm so tired.
haiz.

Hope my dearest friends'll happy again~
Hope my dearest friend'll recover faster~
Hope I'll fulfill my big big wish throughout the form 4's life~
Arghhhhhhhhh......................
hesitated and tiring.

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1.我的大名 : chikang
2.我的生日 : 1月12号
3.誰傳給你的 : yewchung first then tze sien lorr..
4.說出五個好朋友 : erm..many lerh..
5.现在是否有打人的冲动 : 少少咯…
6.生日想要得到什麼禮物 : 真挚的友谊～
7.近期開心的是 :完全没有…
8.近期壓力大的是 ：朋友和学业～
9.未來想做什麼啊 ：只要是人，就好…
10.有沒有喜歡的人 : 本来有的吧，但被伤害了～T.T
11.同學會要回去找老師嗎 : 不懂哦～
12.跟誰出去最幸福 : 朋友们～
13.如果你的兩個好友吵架了 : 帮他们和好吧～
14.跟情人出去最想去哪 : 哈？不懂叻～顺其自然吧…
15.聖誕節要做啥 : 吃大餐～哈哈
16.最想跟誰過聖誕節 : 没有过圣诞的习惯叻＝＝
17.有沒有起床气 : 有吧…
18.有幾個兄弟姐妹 : 2个妹妹…1个干妹妹～
19.最喜歡的一首歌(女生的) : 安静了～听到哭的一首歌
20.最喜歡的一首歌(男生的) : 坏人～「我是好人，也是个坏人…」
21.喜歡什麼顏色 ：蓝，白。
22.上廁所會不會先沖水 : 会叻～
23.愛不愛我 : 爱～^^
24.喜歡男生還是女生 : ＝＝～无言
25.最想大聲說什麼 : 我很累啊！！！！！！！！！
26.半夜敢不敢自己上廁所 : ＝＝…半夜没有上厕所的癖好
27.上廁所會不會脫褲褲 : 有好笑的问题咯
28.誰很欠打 : 有，不想讲…
29.現在很迷什麼 : blogging…
30.睡相很差 : 应该不会吧～
31.現在的時間 : 10：41pm
32.是否痛恨傳給你此卷的人 : 不会～
33.體重多少 : 47…过轻
34.今天天氣 : 还好～
35.你懷孕了嗎 : 不可能～＝＝
36.你若中樂透最想做什么 : 买我想买的东西～
37.大學生一定要玩的活动 : 离大学生生活还很远…

【点名人物】
1. panloong
2. woanwen
3.chooiling
4. yiting
5. cheepui
6. rayson
7. binghan
8. tommychew
9. huiqing
10. parkmin
01-【４號認識６號嗎】: 认识～很熟，同一个学会tim～
02-【１０號是男還是女】：男的～我的男朋友来的＝＝
03-【 ８號的興趣是】: 不懂他哦～打乒乓、kao lui～
04-【１號有沒有兄弟姐妹】：应该只有姐姐吧～不清楚叻…＝＝
05-【７號姓氏】：黄～
06-【１０號人緣好嗎】：不懂哦…好像很好酱～又好像不好酱～
07-【４號有人追嗎】: ＝＝不懂叻～
08-【承上２號呢】：什么问题鬼问题哦？！
09-【６號喜歡的顏色是】：不清楚叻＞＜paiseh～
10-【３號和１０號是朋友嗎】：不认识对方吧～
11-【８號的生日是】：8月6号～
12-【５號讀哪呢】：中华～
13-【你怎麼認識１０號的】: 学会认识的～初一年尾的wilayah training…
14-【你跟１號的生日差幾個月】：才差3天…＝＝
15-【你和９號有出去玩過嗎】：有～
16-【你喜歡和２號聊天嗎】: 喜欢…
17-【你喜歡和３號在一起嗎】：喜欢…
18-【你覺得７號人怎樣】: 很好^^…很可爱～很幽默咯…哈哈
19-【你覺得９號人怎麼樣】: 还好吧…３８３８酱～
20-【你愛５號嗎】: 做么要爱5号？

1. 是誰傳給你這份問卷的 :yewchung
2. 你們認識多久呢 : 3年了吧～
3. 你覺得他(她)對你來說很重要嗎 : 超重要的！
4. 你與他(她)的關係是 : 朋友，朋友还是朋友…
5. 請問他(她)的興趣是 : 不知道叻～
6. 你覺得他(她)的個性如何 : 很好，非常的好…
7. 他(她)在你心目中是幾分 : 没有分数的衡量～爆表了！

＊ 睡觉前第一件事 : 关眼睛～
＊ 起床前第一件事 : 开眼睛～
＊ 你的偶像是 : 没有～
＊ 你喜歡的季節 ：马来西亚只有大热天和下雨天～＝＝
＊ 你打工過嗎 : 没有～
＊ 你想去的國家 : 很多很多～不过，日本最想…
＊ 你討厭什麼樣的個性 : 不懂叻～当下觉得讨厌就讨厌咯…
＊ 你常哭嗎 : 以前没有，现在就有吧～
＊ 你常笑嗎 : 绝对绝对～
＊ 去玩時喜歡一個人去嗎 : 不喜欢～
＊ 是假日時你都睡到幾點 : 10点，11点酱～
＊ 今天的天氣是（晴 雨 陰）：雨～
＊ 朋友和情人你會選擇 : 朋友！！！！！
＊ 機會和命運你會選擇 : 机会！！！！！
＊ 你很自戀嗎 :少少…
＊ 這問卷多不多 : 多到屁酱～
＊ 要怎樣才能讓自己過的好一點 : 睡睡睡，吃吃吃，玩玩玩…
＊ 喜欢吃什么 : 很多叻～讲不完…
＊ 喜歡吃冰嗎 : 当然啦～
＊ 現在幸福嗎 : 一点都不～
＊ 最在乎哪幾個朋友 : 邓柏铭吧…还有班上的那几个～还有很多很多…
＊ 房間裡最重要的東西是什麼 : 床～
＊ 最常夢到什麼 : 很少发梦＝＝
＊ 男人精神出軌要不要原諒他 : 他精神出轨，关我什么事＝＝
＊ 你认为人生的意义是什么 : 享尽生活的各种滋味～
＊ 你知道吗？( 看你们怎么回答！):＝＝不知道～（斗废）
＊ 什么时候最讨厌我 : 谁哦？
＊ 向往出世抑或入世，向往道家抑或儒家？：什么鬼屁问题哦？
＊ 你喜欢吃什么蛋糕？: 有得吃就好～^^
＊ 请问这个游戏可以停止了吗？: 蛮希望的…
＊ 喜欢沙丁鱼吗？: 不是很喜欢～
＊ 谁是你的知己？: 消失了…
＊ IQ/EQ哪一个比较高? : EQ吧…
＊ 電腦手機選一個? ：电脑～
＊ 比较喜欢睡觉还是玩? : 当然是玩咯～
＊ Friendster 还是 Facebook? : facebook～
＊ 现在最希望什么? : 永远开心＋幸福＋没有烦恼～！！！！
＊ 世界末日的时候，最想做的事是什么? : 给大家一个拥抱！
＊ 累了吗？: 很累！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！
＊ 有烦恼吗？: 有很多～～～～～！！！！！！！！！！！！
＊ 有不想被点到吗？：少少咯～

静思；倒带。

我受够了等待，你所谓的安排…

所谓和无所谓，难道就这么不重要吗？

你给的全是空白，
一个人假日发呆，
找不到人陪我看海，
我想你应该明白却一直都进不来。

「我的伤害，我是真的很难释怀…」

你该给的信赖，
我的眼泪却一直掉下来…
看到记忆慢下来过去甜蜜在倒带，
只是感觉已经不在…
过去我给的期待,
被你一次次摔坏已经碎成太多块,
要怎么拼凑跟重来～～

终于看开爱回不来，

我们面前太多阻碍…

而你总是太晚明白，

最后才把话说开…

告别从前的爱～～

today hav physics test again..at the 1st period..all abot linear motion..
and so luckily i din waste my time on doin physics till midnight last few days as i can and able to solve these 3 big big questions..
but not enough time to draw the last s-t graph~~
maybe tis paper is quite easy for everyone in 4S Zhong..
「a sweet paper」as maomao labelled..

after test, my brain like a body is dehydrating..
non-stop tiring~~ then i hav a sleep or snap for one period..
but i cant remember which period leh~~lol
so relax and so comfort to hav a good night..^^

and today my classmates keep on practising choir..
as the competition will held after school..
i feel some sorrowful to them as i didn't be one of the contestent of them~~
reali din cheat u all..i'm so busy tis few weeks..
so heartless to spoil the team~~lol
hope u all will get good result and oso attempt to the final..^^
gambateh ya~~

and dunno why KYJK and me will say abot next year our class..
so maybe i will drop due to my poor result..
it's now accelerate (slowing down) time by time..
not even a little or tiny speed up in my result tis year..

hav fun in today's society..
keep on dancing..
joy and fun~~^^
i think sulim is so exited and so high today..lol
cant forget tis day..hehe
then hav a great time for footdrill..
as i see them footdrill, i juz smile but not laugh~~
as their actions so unordinary..
so special and.........cute..==
then i caught a big temper~~
first time i scold during footdrill time..
i think tat time i'm angry and my face no any emotion..
so seems like reali angry~~lol
then val's turn..
hehe..so much of temper is goin to be talk~~

after society, hav a celebration of tze sien's birthday~~
happy birthday to tze sien..lol
a good birthday present and vitagens ya..
hehe..^^

then, wilayah ac hav training on long case..
tis time i din escape from the training le..==
i'm trying to face it~~
but actually it's not easy..
a poor case tat i lead as i didn't do case for a long time..T.T

night, Dr. Loh go rebecca's house to give some info to us..
me and park min go there for listen~~
meet NC there in a rainy night when i reach her house..
but i havent had dinner yet..==
becoz quite rush after society as well as training oso..
listen abot wat Dr says..much of alien's language~~
cant understand..juz like "huh?huh?!huh!"
OMG
hav to competition le..
so nervous as i'm the leader~~
when finshed, i fetch him go home and went for mamak to take away my dinner..
so simple and easy..but nice~~lol

and oso nid to realise tat..
me and him today dunno why quite close le~~
as i reali dunno my feeling today..
why can so happy and juz agree wat he say?!
lols..
dunno lar~~maybe juz like my friends say「顺其自然」bah..

Vitagens for sien's birthday~~
making 3 wishes on a choc muffin..

sien and her "present"~~unforgetable birthday present!!

abit scary lor..hehe

forget to mention tis..rayson buy vitagen for xiang ning after 2nd recess~~

did u see?! using the wrong straw le..

using a bigger straw to suck a smaller vitagen..lol

今天的物理节，超搞笑的～～
因为毛毛又罚人了…
这次中招的不是我了～～
是盼龙、又宁、丽鸳…那组～～
这次超好笑的…罚僵尸跳叻…
不过只在课室外面那层楼跳罢了～～lol
很鱼叻…
你们要很谢天谢地我没有拍到照片咯～～
不然，早就放上来了…哈哈

还有，可怜的炳翰，不懂要支持谁的人～～
我知道，你还蛮辛苦的…
我不想连你也被他们误会咯…
所以，以后你可以不用再跟我一起吃午餐了，可以不用理我…
去跟他们吧！
免得又被他们说是『叛徒』了～～

放学后，有训练的…
不过因为昨天去复印那里忘了要回正本～～
结果，放学就打算找学会的人陪我去的…但没人理我咯～～
然后，我就打电话给燕婷和家庆…他们陪我去叻～～
我真的没认识错人咯＝＝
去宿舍找他们再去申请外出…
然后就走出去咯～～
边走边笑，边走边讲…
哇！我真的很高兴…可以暂时脱离那烦恼的世界～～
真的很谢谢你们！

结果拖拖拉拉地就差不多5点了～～
他们该练完了吧…
很开心，可以逃过一次～～
也许，大家会觉得我很坏…
但站在我的立场，我觉得一点都不坏咯…
应该说，我想要「坏」～～
不要再有沉重的责任感了…
酱会很累很累的～～
所以，我要变坏…

「我是好人，也是个坏人…」

我想休息。

早上很blur blur 地起来，
最近都12点多才睡，
头很痛，没有什么精神…
不是因为学会；
不是因为上网，
而是要快点把物理搞好～～
我很努力了，但力不从心…
很多看不懂…T.T
突然，对自己没信心、没希望了。

第二节、第三节…在化学实验室～～
兴奋～～
又有得做实验了…lol
然后，最炸到的我们…在做完了实验后，还可以玩拍照…
拍，拍，拍。
开心到～～

放学，committee跳舞…
其实不是很想去～～
想到他，就想逃…
也不懂为什么的咯…
然后，也尴尬地被耀宗和思苓推他过来，跟我跳舞…＝＝
我当时真的真的不懂要怎样应对，更不懂要把眼神透到哪一个角落，才让我看不见他。
当时只有2个字：尴尬。
1630了，我，耀宗，慧卿一起走路去巴士站…
我很开心，终于把故事讲完给耀宗知道了。
一路上，我真的很开心～～
也许，我真的做到了；
我放下了！

对不起啊，诗妍～～ 其实，我那时没赶着回家，只是赶着去mutiara复印quiz的东西罢了。
复印完，差不多1730了…
赶不及在预定的时间内到家，所以call爸爸来载咯～～

回到家，很忙啊～～
明天考sejarah叻…
就一直读一直读～～
很闷、很想睡咯…
不过，上次考到够差了…
这次一定要考好叻…
加油加油～～

me>>chee pui

taking a test tube of soluble salt~~

blue colour de..so nice..^^
wendy here..taking a test tube and PEKA..
like graduate lor..lol

3 girls W.H.Y. snapping photo in lab~~^^

our group~~i'm nt inside leh...

cz i'm the cameraman~~lol

the 3 girls again~~W.H.Y.

and the yellowish test tube is our successful result..^^

不想；不理；不管了。一切过去了～～

不哭了；
放弃了。
看化了；
看开了。
一切结束了；
安静了。

所有的关系正处于凝结状态；
就让它们继续维持现状好了。

可是无可否认，
他影响我很大…很深…
星期四那天考大代，
我完全没心情做，也没脑袋再去想了…
结果，好像错了很多…
在我的数学成绩史里面，好像是第一次叻～～T.T
当然也就没有心情让我去碰其他的事情了…

「你是好人，也是个坏人…」
我现在没感觉了，
完全不想理会，
也完全不想有任何互动…

或许，我们比较适合做回原点的自己…
或许，我们的关系更适合凝滞在陌生人的世界里头…
或许，有人会比我更在意你…

不管它了～～
不管这一切了～～
让大家回到陌生时分也许是想要的结果，也是最好的结果吧！

今天，很搞笑咯～～
毛毛派考卷…
我们考到很惨叻！
几乎全班不及格～～当然不懂为什么还会有2个人及格咯…＝＝
他叫我的时候，我就出去拿考卷咯…
糟，他记得我了～～
还跟我说下次再拿不及格的话，就请我再剪光头…lol

还有，看到了rayson很拼命地在做物理…
哎哟，我不能再酱堕落下去了！
所以，我下目标了…
从现在开始，要把物理搞好～～
免得有一种想转科的念头…

还有还有，只觉得毛毛最近好像变了；
变开朗了…
也许是对我们失望的另一种表现吧…
因为我们有够力差咯！

别再为他流泪

我哭了。
不停地哭，
昨天，终于大家有机会坐下来谈…
但是，全程只有他在讲～～
我只在哭，但因为还没有心理准备…
只能够回答他〖我不懂要怎样面对你？！〗

晚上，补刘明华的数学…
带了一张纸…打算写信给他～～
从1930写到2330（一边补习一边写很不方便，结果回家继续写咯…）
把自己今天没讲到的心里话全写出来…
写啊写啊…
已经慢慢一张A4纸了…
湘宁，拜你所赐、如你所愿…
我边写边哭，边哭边写～～T.T
听着「SHE的安静了」哭得更厉害了！
写了很多很多…
就好像一个女朋友在跟他男朋友离开前的叮咛和感情抒发。

今天一早，
毫不犹豫，给了他…
之后，sl告诉我他第1节的心情，
反而让我觉得他不重视我的感受…
可能真的是我太苛刻要求、太敏感了吧…
所以，过后也想了想…没什么事了。

第4节考化学，很好…都会做咯。
第5节考物理，waiye maomao 啊…
出了2份考卷叫我们全班选…A或B…
结果，我们选了A考卷，最难的。
3大题；
第1题，会做一半不会做一半酱；
第2题，题目看了很久，看不懂图要怎样画…
结果，老师解释后才懂…但没时间了～～
第3题更不用讲咯…lol


第二次下课，跟淑琳、芝萱吃午餐…
回到班上，看到了他的回信…
还蛮期待去看的咯…
看了过后，有欣慰，但有少少失望～～
接着又回他的信…（又想哭了！）
旁边的朋友看了，好像在写信给男朋友酱…
真的很想情侣咩？…＝＝

放学后，给了他第二封信，
就去上第一堂akaun的课了～～
所以，以后又多一个补习了…
苏婷凤老师，讲话有少少的快～～
不过，还可以接收啦…

最近，也不懂做么…
升级做了【爱情顾问】…
2个盲目的男女一直问我要怎样做～～
我就一直回答回答…
我根本就没有拍过拖…＝＝
虽然有少少烦，但感觉不错啦～
只希望可以撮合这2个人…
那成就感一定会爆增咯～～lol

还有，谢谢一群朋友们的鼓励，让我撑下去；
谢谢，盼龙和钰凌听我诉说这故事…
谢谢，那些3838的朋友…
谢谢，他的主动和我的被动…
谢谢，我的眼泪（不过，一旦它流泪了，接下来就很难再控制了。）

『别再为他流泪』，
或许是我的目标；
但这决不可能发生，
我一定会再落泪的…
一定会的～～

April Fool..==

today 1/4/2009..
an april fool day..
but i didnt played by anyone~~lol
but we play jia ching lor..
it's ying teng de idea..
put salt and pepper into his water bottle~~
yulk~~so wai..
sry jia ching ya..==

and two things let me shocked and i thought it was a joke..
i thought it's april fool onli..

first, kah mung gone~~
change to art class le..4A Ren~~T.T
hope she can get her happiness and relax in her class recently..
dun giv out tears le~~
and muz always come back 4S Zhong arh..

second, jeremy gone oso~~
change skul le..
our class teacher say becoz he get a heavy pressure..
so nid to change a new environment~~

so, our class nw hav 58 ppl instead of 60 le..

and today hav done chemistry experiment lor..lol
at the 2nd and 3rd period..
so funny lor..

after skul, we hav committee meeting for the 5th time...
abit long meeting till 5pm~~
then hav a open-hearted talk between committee..
a talk for abot 1 hour..
talk abot many things..
then,
valerie talk til cry..
tze sien talk til cry..
sulim hear til cry..
sue yee hear til cry..
me oso hear til giv out tears..
i didnt seen them cry before..==

my turns to say le..
juz say out one sentence..
then i start to cry le..
cry and cry and cry..non-stop~~ then i start to talk le..
abit comfort le~~
hav say say say all the things tat i wanna say le..^^ sry yew chung..din back wif u~~and havent tell u wat happen leh~~
sry hui qing..din talk to u although u are close to me~~
and hope all the committee wont mind today wat we say~~
GAMBATE..all the committee of 2009!

doin experiment~~pinky pinky de NaOH..

yea~~colourless le..wat a perfect experiment..==jun seong sleeping as english teacher din at class..lol

they are practising choir~~walao, the boys..

ooi..concentrate abit leh~~^^